Creativity Jumpstart & Freedom from Fear

Hand to Brush
Watercolour on Fabriano, 15"x 22"

I gave a gifted artist a session that I call a "Creativity Jumpstart." She had been widowed two years before, and had stopped creating artwork. Her late husband, also an artist, visited her in her dreams, and often in meditation. But she missed him terribly, and no longer had the desire to produce. An artist myself, I often help creatives from many fields overcome blocks such as this. With that single session, she visualized a truckload of artwork she had created, and at last overcame her block and began to accomplish the art that she so loved, and was meant to do.

She then returned to me, and told me how her world had become constricted, and she was afraid to walk her ranch for fear of wild animals. Sometimes people who have lost beloved husbands or wives may place themselves in their own prison, afraid to attend functions without their late spouses, afraid to reach out to a world that seems so foreign without that love of their life, even experiencing guilt that they still lived while their loved one had passed. We decided to have a QHHT session, and examine this fear, something that did not exist before, when she was free to walk her land with her husband, but now had developed boundaries and barriers.

In her session regression, she was a Native American "Half Breed" (I only use this as it was the terminology of that century that she was experiencing), wild and free in early America, spending days by herself hunting and gathering moss and shells and beautiful natural things for her people and her art. She described her tribal people and a beloved grandmother who loved her and cared for her, how she tried to go to school with the Early Settlers, and how she independently turned her back on the colonial education and way of life. 

She was one with nature, a lover of solitude and comfortable in her own skin, communing with her surroundings and loving the wind, the moon, the stars, and the spirits. She died young, in her thirties, with her family surrounding her and chanting, as she lay on moss they had gathered, a symbol of the earth, nature, and the forest. It was a peaceful death. 

Her subconscious spoke to her that she had always been one with nature, and never needed to be afraid. She was shown that life so that she could release this fear, and learn to live regain her joy in life. In that life she had taught others that people can be different, floating between two cultures, and be fully realized and strong. She was not to be afraid of nature, and it was beautiful to be outside. She no longer had to fear wild animals, and could walk her land safe and sure. Her subconscious actually teased her about this fear, and removed it. It told her to walk her ranch, and strengthen her knee, not be so sedentary, not to justify lack of activity due to fear, and to weather this small amount of anxiety as she grew away from these limitations. She was to love her life, to wholeheartedly embrace it and to get out there in the forest, a metaphor to get out there and live her life! It was her time and place. Have no fear. Have no fear.